“Everyone needs a place where it is just you. It can be creative, it can be a computer – it can be anything. It is your sacred place and you own it.” Toni Morrison
When I read this I immediately could identify my own sacred place which is my desk (also serves as my eating place when I have company). This is an area piled high with books set at odd angles to each other, a notebook with a selection of pens, post-its and a highlighter nearby.
I walk by it many times a day and sigh when I pass because it appears unorganized but when I sit down and enter the space I am lost in a good way into its possibilities. There are poems to complete, my journal which always needs attention and various books with their passages marked for me to contemplate further.
Yet often, while I occupy my place, my thoughts run in circles and at the end of the day I can easily be left with feelings of numbness. Ideas have raced for hours but there is no finish line. No sense of completeness. I decided I needed to take my reading and writing up a notch and create a steady outcome.
One way to do this was get into blogging. “But who will even bother to read your blog,” my alter ego asked. I had to admit this voice created tension as I am a social person who has always received enjoyment and satisfaction in the company of others. But the truth was I did receive satisfaction when I posted a blog on my website and it had nothing to do whether my post was going to be read by anyone.
Where did this satisfaction come from?
Process theology speaks of two aspects of divine activity in the world: the “creative love of God” and the “responsive love of God.” Theologian Catherine Keller calls the first the divine passion.* God sends a “lure” into me; it is an invitation which says something like, “Do something with all that you are reading. Make it come to actualization outside your immediate experience.” I take up this challenge and write a blog posting. God then takes into himself what I have done. Keller says that he feels my feelings with compassion. John 10:10 invites us to “have life, and have it abundantly.”The desire of God, then, is for life and more life; he urges me on to work more towards actualizing or putting into print my ideas.
When I bring my thoughts to fruition on the written page, is God is enjoying himself through me? Does this result in feelings of personal satisfaction in my soul?
If so, this is ample recompense for my efforts. I don’t need the approval of future readers of my blog to keep posting.
Now, with all this in mind, I look with affection at my messy desk. There is no need to straighten or put away anything.
* Catherine Keller, On the Mystery: Discerning God in Process (Minneapolis: Fortress, 2008), 98



















